What's Love Gotta Do With It?
I started writing this post at 3am while in a very negative mindset. I let it sit for a little while, read it multiple times, and realized that if I posted it the way it was that the only person who would benefit from it was myself. That isn't why I started writing in the first place and I refuse for my first post of 2020 to be selfish. I started writing years ago to help others by exposing some of the hardest things I've faced/I still face. While some of this is still the original 3am content, a lot had changed with acceptance of where I stand today. I found myself not loving myself again this year. I think it is going to be a constant thing, having to be conscious and make the decision to love myself every day. I know this is something a lot of people deal with, not just us sick kids. I know a lot of my own issues stem from everything I've been through while I was sick and afterwards. People coming in and out of my life. Never feelings like I was enough. Never honestly ...