10 Years Later
Looking back at the last 10 years some crazy things have happened. This year in itself has been challenging. I started the year (literally January 1, 2020) by leaving a toxic relationship. I took the year to figure out what I wanted in a relationship and loving myself again. I focused on forgiving myself and being kind to myself. Then the pandemic hit. Everyone I know struggled through the pandemic in their own way. For me it was a lot of worry, anxiety, depression. But I got through because I have an amazing support system and an amazing dog. Then the worst thing I could ever imagine happened. I lost one of the best humans I have ever known to a battle with cancer. A part of me died with him, I can’t lie. I heard once that there are deaths that you don’t get over, you carry it with you for the rest of your life. He was that one. Since then, I’ve struggled and I still struggle with. What I am about to explain sounds selfish and I know he would hate me for feeling this way. It is how I ...