You Are Tougher Than You Think

I always build this day up like it’s a marriage anniversary. In a way I guess you can look at it that way. It’s my lifelong commitment to losing one more organ and in turn having diabetes. This year is different because it is my first anniversary with this blog so it adds some pressure. As happy as it makes me to look back and be able to say, “yeah I made it,” looking back brings up a lot of bad memories, opening a lot of old wounds. A lot of people came in and out of my life at that time and there were a lot of dark thoughts at that time that I still try to forget about today. Despite all of that, not all of it was filled with horrible memories and hey, today is a day for celebration! Although I was scared out of my mind, I was having a surgery that would change my life for good. I remember very little about my time in Minnesota. I do remember though that I was 18 and facing major surgery. This is the one time as an 18-year-old that I didn’t want to be treated like an adult. They...

I know that life doesn’t just stop when you’re sick. Currently I’m a full time college student working two different jobs. I get that sometimes you have so many things happening that you can’t control and you have to deal with. That’s how life is. But there are times that there is nothing wrong with sitting in bed all day and binge watching Netflix. This is something that you have to do for yourself both mentally and physically. “Mental days” are one of the best things that can happen to one of us. I’m doing it right now. I got out of class and I have the rest of the day off so for the next few hours it’s me time. I’m having what my family refers to as a “bad day.” I woke up this morning and didn’t feel right but pushed through to do what I absolutely had to. Then my body crashed and I realized I needed a mental and physical break. So for the next few hours I’m going to shut out the rest of the world and focus solely on me. Later I’ll get back to reality, but right now I need to g...