So Before I Save Someone Else, I've Got to Save Myself
It was during a 3 hour drive home that I heard "Save Myself" by Ed Sheeran. I've heard it many times before but this time it hit home. It hits home because it's time for me to take my own advice for once. I haven't been okay for a couple of months. I'm not sure what triggered it but while my anxiety is manageable, my depression started to take it's toll. I had a bad day, which turned into a couple of bad days. Those bad days turned into a bad week and so on. To be completely honest, right now I'm not sure where the good and the bad separate. I was about 16-years-old when I faced my first serious depression. I turned into a person that I never want to be again. I was suffering from illness and struggling every day to find some reason to get out of bed. I wanted everyone else to suffer with me. I destroyed my relationships and pushed everyone away. Partly because I knew I was being an intolerable person, other part because maybe if I pushed them away s...